Goodbye

You.

This might be the last write up about you. 3 years went by and it was beautiful while it last. All the butterflies and shimkungs you made me feel.... I really want to thank you for it. My uni life has been more exciting and memorable thanks to you despite it being a one sided thing. I’m able to talk to you better now just cause I no longer feel that ticklish feeling everytime i see you or hear your name. It’s  kind of sad tho cause you were the second guy I gave my heart to. 

Thank you shaheed. It was nice knowing you.

A mere glass

I believe, strongly believe that I am stronger than whatever shitty feelings that I’m facing right now. Jogja went by and I found myself talking to someone and actually believe for a moment that I am able to have someone liking me for who I am. Then again hahaah I was just making a joke out of myself. Whilst trying to get that over you came by (as usual) only to use me for your academics and ended the convo with something that made me so mad. Thank you beautiful(pretty) much. 

I hate you

Kasyaf?!

I think I should just dedicate this whole blog for you lah eh hahaha. Just 4 days ago I was bent on moving on from you cause I wanna play safe and protect my little heart but every single time I decided on this, you will just do something that will definitely make this super difficult on the very next day.... like you kasyaf or what seyh haha...

So apparently I saw you smiling and waving so happily to a girl whom I kinda dislike. So obviously seeing that makes me feel like oh ya I ain’t that special lah (well practically I’m not lah) and basically that’s it lah hahaha; jealous. But like I said in the begining, the very next day after I decided on moving on; you came to me all smiley and happy.... of course sis cair..... then for the two papers on Thursday you sat beside me when there are so many other seats tau..... k tu takpe hahaha then apparently we wore the same colour (unplanned duh) and people we teasing us... well you started it first kot... orang tanya balik bila and you said balik Singapore?! WTH and it’s as though you are really going to balik sg?! Then the others was like ooooo dah kawin tak bagitau..... JUST KNOW THAT IF I AM GETTIG MARRIED TO YOU ESP SEMUA ORG MUST KNOW THIS HANDSOME GUY IS MINE HAHAHA k so you were so cool about it laaa aku yang mcm nak gila control boleh pecah dada dok time tu haha